It’s like a wave numb inactivity, disengagement and lack of a give a damn sucks my typical enthusiasm for life. I think many of us experience this dull, dry, ‘desert’ feeling at times. To be honest, I hate it. I despise being sucked into a sloth like abyss. But, at the same time, I find it very challenging to overcome. Perhaps, it is the weather, the lack of sunshine or the abundance of viruses and bugs that wreak havoc on whole families and classrooms.
Whatever the reason, I find myself returning to what I know has brought me out of the doldrums before: more time with God. And so I return to solitude name my blessings, ask for help with my state of mind and wait. I decide that my waiting must be active. I really don’t feel motivated to do so, but I will take the dogs for a much needed break from their own sluggishness. My 12 year old accompanies me and together we become reunited with the forest in the winter.
It is in the forest that I get my answer: just take small steps, one at a time. Don’t look too far ahead and keep your eyes resting on what is dearest to you. I see my daughter romping through the fresh snow chasing the dogs and completely absorbed in the moment. Oh how nature reminds us to get off our butts, out of our own heads and into the present moment! With the sunshine peeking through the treetops and the wind kept at bay by the thick forest I am comforted.
Life is too short to sit inside and worry about how much we have to do. I get so caught up in my to do list that it begins to erode my mental and physical health. Add to that the guilt of what I believe should be doing as a mom. Even the dogs make me feel guilty!
Today I am reminded of what I already know: never wait until we ‘feel’ like doing some sort of activity that will be good for your mind, body and spirit. Just do it. You owe it to yourself. Get outside. Move. Play. Do something different. Something you don’t particularly feel like doing.
Make today a good day. 😛